Painting stars
Listening to: F.T Island [마중]
Mood: Jaeho

A close friend confided something to me yesterday.

Well truth to be told, i reckon i still feel a slight tinge of disappointment though i insisted that 'nah im just surprised'.

But i should be understanding i guess.

I am happy as long as my friend is! Ok was. Lol. Cos that thing happened quite some time back.

重要的不是天使是否永远在你身旁， 而是她来过的事实。

Too many people in this world seek happiness in the wrong way.

Eh. I belong to the same category?

><

Try taking a step back to observe this world. Silently.

Was painting stars earlier on.

Been having dizzy spells ever since i came back from Perth. Cant figure out why though. But my mum thinks its cos i sit in front of the comp for too long. Her diagnosis?

DVT.

Ehh *touch wood*..

Haha ok i mean she is worried that i may get deep vein thrombosis ba.

So today i finally got down to making something instead of staring at jae, i mean my comp. XD

My first attempt: 5 stars!

Hmm i know 9th august is coming soon but for someone who has a korean flag on her table.. well u get the drift. lol.

Its actually for my cassiopeia constellation. Been thinking of it since time immemorial but yes i procrastinated again. Argh..

Had a hard time cutting out the stars but it was worth the effort cos painting them were so much fun~ ^^ N it suddenly dawned on me that even doing a task as simple as that can be gratifying too.

Now i finally understand why kids love art and craft lessons.

Adults, on the other hand, just fail to find joy in the most minute things around them. They think that happiness is but a commodity.

But do they actually know..?

The most beautiful things in the world are not seen, but felt.

또 울어버렸다.. @ 3:29 PM

Jaechun <3
Watching: Soulmates 'kiss' clip at the Ulsan dream concert
Mood: Jaechun

Lol. Eh the clip was named that by someone else not me. But its such a sweet clip!!! Haha if only jae will ever do that to me..

Nah chun n jae werent really doing that. Just that someone's fancam caught them nicely at an angle that kinda gave the false impression that jae seemed to lightly peck chun on his ear when he was whispering something to him.

Awww..

I am torn!

So torn cos i simply cant decide between jaeho, jaechun, jaesu n jaemin~

Aish.

><

Well frankly at the very first it was jaesu cos they were the 2 members i liked most at the beginning. But later jaeho took over before i began to notice jaechun. Yet later again, it became jaemin before going back to jaesu n now its jaechun all over again! Arghh.

Its a vicious cycle. Lol.

One thing i must comment. Kim Jaejoong is a born seducer. xDDDDDD

Ahhh i miss nat!! Only she can tahan my spazzing cos she fangirls all the time too. Hee. She n her 2U. ^^

But i really <3 my jaeho. I mean they are really perfect for each other la. The way ho always protects jae n how jae bullies everyone else cept for ho. N of cos the notorious look of admiration for ho. xD Makes me think of jae as a mini ho fan sometimes. Heh.

On the other hand, jaechun is really sweet too. Not only because of their matching Soulmate tattoos (although i thot jae removed it..must have read wrongly) but cos i think the both of them really can understand what each other had gone through. All those family problems that they experienced..i guess on an emotional level these 2 are the best to be there for each other.

As for jaemin, this is one pair that really makes me smile like a fool to myself sometimes. heh. The oldest n the youngest. But trust me, if you ever see them 'fighting' each other u will never guess that jae is the oldest in the group. N i still insist that jae seems to be teaching min all the wrong things. Lol. Its just that min seems to be following what his hyung does alot. All those silly silly stuff. *glomps min*

Heh i love jae's 'SAN, NI, ICHI...ICHI GO..ICHIGO TABETAI~' Lol..who in his right mind would ever think of that??? Wahaha. *glomps jae even more*

Lastly jaesu. Well although this pair is actually one of the least mentioned couplings but lately theres more n more jaesu moments. Especially during the 3rd album n the Prague photobook. HAha yeah..pls have more jaesu moments. Over at the asianfanatics forum people were like asking for jaesu duets. Hee. The 2 best vocals of dbsk in a duet? I think i would love that song to the core. <33333

In short..i lurve all my jae couplings!!

*beams brightly*

Well since im in a jaechun mood today..

Heh ohh n i forgot to mention something!

I realised jae has 4 habits.

1. He loves to look at ho with such big puppy eyes.

2. He loves to whisper stuff to chun.

3. He is almost always the first to laugh when su cracks a joke.

4. He loves to kajiao min.

^______________________^

또 울어버렸다.. @ 8:14 PM

Missing my sheep
Watching: all the tvxq clips that i have not seen in 6 days

Oops. Just realised i saw the wrong dates on my own poster. Lol. The bois were at 福岡 on the 15th n 16th. Which means the tour ended at 武道館 on the 18th n 19th. My eyesight is getting poor. >_<

Missed the bois when i was away too.

Heh yup im back from perth!

N i realised i really have negative cold resistance.

I was like wearing my long john top, t-shirt, sweater, another top n finally my jacket n i was still feeling cold at the farm! Brrrr~~

But i miss my animals terribly..

My sheep, kangeroos, koalas, wombat, seagulls, ducks, horses.. n lots more..even the sheepdogs!

Cant say i liked the food much though.

But i loved the cottage over at the farm! It was really lovely..just a tad too cold. N i keep thinking of all those thrillers (think Scream n Texas Chainsaw =p) while i was bathing. Haha ok i admit i watched too many. The fact that the heater made a funny thud sound whenever u used it din seem to help. Heh but it was still nice~

Ok maybe i shld finish blogging about my korean trip first before embarking on my perth one. Or else i think i might forget all those minute details by then..my memory is deteriorating by the day. Lol. N i just got scolded by angie for forgetting some knitting needles. But i really dun rem!! T.T

Hee n last but not least here's wishing my dear nat a happy trip to korea!! Well she's leaving tomorrow n coming back only on the 12th of august. So long~~ *envious* Haha come back soon darling for our countdown to Dec!! Always felt this fondness for this dongsaeng of mine though til now i still haven met her in person yet. Lol. N our favourite pastime?

Spazzing nonstop.

^^

*hugs* n Take cAre ya!! <333

Ohh i almost forgot..heh thanks to my laogong too for taking care of jae while i was away! Hope he din step on the bunnies when he was throwing his tempers..xDD

Was watching Channel-a earlier n it kinda made tears well up in my eyes when they mentioned the part about the bois when they first debuted in japan. They were so young then..n i think it was really pressurizing for them to talk n sing in japanese when they barely knew the language at that time. But look at them blabbering on in japanese right now..

Heh i am so very proud of them..

Thats all i can say.

TVXQ really deserves the Best Buzzasia award from Korea.

Like what nat n i always say, we think they are really godsent angels in disguise. ^^

Hearing the sheep go baa-ing in my head..

또 울어버렸다.. @ 6:33 PM

My 三连拍！
Watching: Yoonjae fanvids
Feeling: ^.^



또 울어버렸다.. @ 10:16 PM

Random spazz
Watching: THSK on NHK Music Japan [Lovin' you] & [Choosey lover] perf

Heh my 2 favourite jap singles from them so far besides [My destiny] n [Miss you]. Their jap songs are really getting nicer n nicer..

N as usual with any [choosey lover] perf..i repeated it.

Choose me baby uh..

Sexy lady uh..

^^

Heh n of cos..junsu's おやじギャグ again.. Lol.

This silly fella just loves his gag jokes.

Lurve it when he says them with such an innocent face just like a kid trying to make you smile. N the best part? He always seem so proud of his own jokes (even when its not funny!! xDD)

Heh den yoochun n jaejoong will be the ones laughing out loud while yunho n changmin try to look amused before the leader starts apologising to the host n audience.. Lol.

Was talking to rachel on msn yesterday n it struck me how devoted she is to 비. Ha not like me.. Nah not alot mah..just dbsk, ss501, super junior, h.o.t, shinhwa, ftts, rain, se7en...ehh plus battle, buzz, eru..oh n xing, tachyon..n erm..latest addition right from the oven..F.T island ONLY!!

Ohh n i was only naming those that came to my mind at the moment.

^_________^

Haha ok enough to deplete my finances n kill my comp from all the youtubbing n clubboxing.

>.< But well, life is short. Might as well fill it up with memories of pple who never fail to brighten up my day.

Heh chuckled to myself just now when i was watching the [choosey lover] perf.

Boojae where were you going? Lol.

I think he overshot his position at the starting. Den chun was smiling at him.

Minnie looks kinda tired though..

N i spotted another jaesu moment during the interview! Jae was poking at junsu's thigh when he heard the question wrongly. Made me recall the expression that jae had during the Hey!Hey!Hey! telephone booth thingy. Ahhhh~~

Super duper precious expression that he had when junsu was saying his ギャグ!! Ehh think Puss in boots's famous expression in Shrek. Lolx.

Ok back to my F.T island. Ehh Honggi's voice n way of singing reminds me of sg wannabe..but yeah they got potential! Haha n jaejin is cute~

Kinda regret not buying Buzz first album when i was in seoul. Hiaks. N actually i wanted to get Eru's first n second too. (my bf has them) N now F.T island's first too..

T.T

Finally got the pics in seoul from my bf today! ^^

Memories of Seoul still fresh in my mind..

또 울어버렸다.. @ 7:11 PM

A tribute
Ehh my poor pikachu who had been with me since i think secondary school days? Usually i wun throw out my stuffed toys if i can but cos the right side of it is really disintegrating badly so no choice..

Oki last pic. Heh cos im collecting jaesu pics at the moment. Yup my fondness for the jaejoong-junsu pairing has increased tremendously recently. But heh my laogong doesnt have to worry cos yoonjae is still tops no matter what..^^ But this pic is so precious! What is junsu trying to do to jaejoong..lol. But yeah i support junsu's action for the benefit of jae lovers. Haha..oopx. xDD

Ohh yeah today is angie's birthday! HAha yeah happy 23rd birthday to this very old friend of mine. Lol. Ok i just met her the day before only. Anyway i support tiffany over adidas anyday. Haha but dun expect me to buy for u thankew.. Ask my same initials twin la..=p

Ok this is super belated but it really slipped my mind..happy birthday to kim hyunjoong too! His birthday was on 6th june actually..just 2 days after chunnie n i forgot. Aish. I really need to do up a calendar for all of them. Heh in the midst of planning..cos i wanna do some dbsk projects for my room too so might as well.

Speaking of which i finally re-put up my posters n added some new ones. One task down! Couldnt stand how messy they were..

Still need to clear my wardrobe n tables..

Rename all my clips, pics n mp3s. That is a real headache. >_<

Den after which i still need to burn them out n keep before my comp dies on me. Choy!

Better be safe than sorry. Heh.

Ohh i finally got my green shrek ears courtesy of my jie! ^^ To keep my lonely rabbit ears that i got at Everland company. Heh. But i gotta apologise to him cos i think it made him had a sore throat after eating Macs n yesterday when i met him to take the ears he seemed to be down with flu too. =( sorriew..

I feel very bad..hiaks.

Hmm home alone now.

Guess i will just go finish up my Bad Family after angie goes off.

또 울어버렸다.. @ 1:47 PM

Envious
Watching: Hyukkie n teukkie on Sukira dancing to [Sexyback]
Feeling: Amused

Heh yeah its a pretty old clip le but these 2 are really so cute~ Lol. I support Sukira!! Too bad i cant get to hear it in singapore..

The more i see hyukkie the more adorable i think he is. ^^

Oh was watching the Suju T on KM Idol world (caught one epi when i was in seoul) n the Goong T skit they did really cracked me up. Especially teukkie n heechul!! Heechul was acting as hwang jini..n the 2 of them as a couple was really hilarious. Heh i gotta emphasize..heechul is really that kind whereby either u love him or u hate him. But yeah i belong to the former category. :D

Think til now the members that are still pretty neutral to me are shindong, ryeowook, donghae, kyuhyun n yehsung. Ehh the whole K.R.Y is included. Lol. Ermm..they dun really talk much i think. As in like compared to heechul, teuk, hyuk, siwon, kangin etc..

But nah, no worries i still lurve my suju!

Lol sounds like i like the rice wine.

Ohh n i happen to watch battle's school of rock yesterday. Dun even remember when i got it. xD But yeah chris, lio n taehwa are quite cute. Chris really reminds me of someone but i cant seem to pinpoint it at the moment..n kihyun is super quiet. Just like the old jaejoong n youngsaeng! N why is he that tall?? Looks quite strange when the 6 of them stand together. At least for minnie hes tall but the rest of the members dun differ that much in height so overall the pic is still nice.

Another flaw about kihyun is that i dun really find his voice great..n he certainly dun look like he can rap either..

*avoids battle's fans*

Hmm just borrowed a book on cakes the day before. Aish why is baking such a tedious n complex task? But yeah im determined to get it right by hook or by crook someday. I just cant stand the fact that there isnt really anything that i can proudly say im good at. Ok i may sound like im looking down on myself or lacking in self confidence whatever but if that motivates me to learn more, i dun think its such a bad mindset.

I admit, i usually dun possess that much determination to see something through.

Even for piano, knitting, rollerblading..all i gave up halfway.

Hiaks.

I should be more disclipined!

Especially now that i have all the time in the world.




또 울어버렸다.. @ 10:20 PM

dreams..
Listening to: Tachyon [아니면]
Feeling: -___-

Heh i think tachyon is not bad after all. But too bad i dun buy singles for anyone besides dbsk. So yeah..im still patiently waiting for their full album n also for battle and xing. Ok n maybe FT island too..^^

Just knew from huiye today that orchard popular is closing down n cd rama is giving double stamps. Argh. N i just bought snow dream yesterday at causeway cd rama lo. Wasted. Up til now i haven accumulated enuf stamps yet to redeem anything. =( Heh was thinking if it was in korea confirm i would already be exchanging for my freebie every month liao... =p

Hmm dun really have much to blog today.

Well i did go for 2 new tuition recently n for the first time i met a super disgusting mum who was so gan chiong about the lesson. Sian. She kept insisting that i shld have let her son do a comprehension in the first lesson to judge his standards when i kept telling her that i can always judge from his past comprehensions. N guess what she said?

'i think the comprehensions he did in the dec hols all wrong one.'

Oh u win.

Hands down.

Her expression was so smug i had to do everything to refrain from arguing with her.

N when she was looking at my certs, she kept emphasizing that its not she's niao or wat, its she wants to be careful. Ok i give her the benefit of the doubt for that.

Den after the lesson, she came in to talk to me again n after saying all those crap 'i kept telling the agency i wan somebody very experienced, come in first lesson will blah blah blah, so first lesson nothing much was done la.......' n den still had the cheek to tell me not that she purposely want to find fault. Erm we both know what kind of person u are la hor.

I mean as in i know what i want to teach lo. Not as if i go in n just stare at her son for 2 hours. Hello!! its just the first lesson. N i dun even know where the hell ur son stands when he dun even have his english file. So of cos i need to start from the basics right. N she wasnt happy i used the sec 3 english assessment he had. Err..can i ask what u want to do with the books if u dowan to use them?

Eat ar?

Bleh.

Wa liao. Who the hell builds Rome in a day.

No matter what i will need time right? IF ur son can miraculously pass his english from a D7 grade from just 2 hours of tuition, i salute the tutor whoever that is.

Frankly, i was pretty pissed after trying to defend my stand for 15 mins. Under these kind of situations, i would normally tend to opt out instead. But again..i felt the same way i felt when i was in the lab. Yes, under V. The feeling when somebody doubts ur ability n ur words. Its..i dunno how to describe exactly but its the 'the more somebody looks down on u the more u feel indignant' kind. So, yes i asked for a 2nd lesson before the mum makes a final decision.

I absolutely loathe it when pple treat u like that. N i dunno why i keep feeling this way in this year alone. Super suay. Even when the time me n angel went to appeal for the drugs mod..heh ok angel will rem. Cos i think my attitude was quite bad. Well, its that lousy prof who made me pissed in the first place.

Pls stop letting me meet this kind of pple.. i think i had enough.

Hmm at least my 2nd tuition was much better.

Oh another thing the mum said that added even more fuel to the fire.

'Oh for the same rates actually that time got offer this angmo who very good one..provide all the materials himself..we dun even need to prepare anything..but den my son worry that cant communicate lo..'

Oh since ur angmo tutor so zai, call him la!

I seriously think ur son will not be able to understand him at all.

Ok at least i feel much better letting it all out.

AhHHHhh!!

...

...

Hmm..yesterday i dreamt of yunho again..

But this time there was junsu too. Heh mrs jung n mrs kim susu will be glad to hear that..

But how come no jaejoong again??

I think it was in some sort of classroom setting. Then junsu was looking at this room within the classroom through the glass windows n he suddenly commented that its a very weebee room. As in the way i decorated the room (its my room i think n it was full of dbsk posters) heh so i was smiling cos i was just standing beside him when he said that. Den after that yunho suddenly appeared n (this part was quite sweet..lol) he put his hand around my shoulder n pushed me towards the side of the classroom cos he was the monitor so he had to stand there n sing something during the class. But he din want to sing it alone so he got me along to sing with him. Heh n his hands were there throughout the song. ^__^

*escapes before mrs jung comes*

Ohh actually i keep dreaming of yunho n junsu only lo. I really dunno why..

I did dream of them too while i was in seoul n it was the day before i went down to junsu appa's shop. N yes coincidentally, it was about his appa's shop too. Heh. Think i was really looking forward to the next day n ended up dreaming about it.. xD But the shop was pretty different in my dreams..lol.

I want to dream about kim jaejoong!!!

또 울어버렸다.. @ 9:12 PM

떡볶이!
Watching: 7 Princess [Love Song] MV

Heh Lee young yoo is so cute! N somehow the song sounds pretty familiar..think it had a chinese version of something. Hmm. Eh korean kids really have a natural flair for acting sia. Love her as 나림 in 불량가족. Especially when she's with heechul!! Haha even though she's just a small kid..

N i finally saw the part heechul played n sang [마법의성] on the piano for the ger. Heh i think i will just swoon if a guy played that to me. N probably melt into a puddle of water if that guy was kim jaejoong. O_O

N 박진우 is really a cutie...^^

heh if i ever like kim junghoon he should thank park jin woo cos i really think they look alike.. but nah, for the moment im content with my park jin woo~~ :D

Ohh coming back to my title of the day, i finally went to novena square n bought meself my beloved 떡볶이!! Haha n got the chilli paste thingy too so i can cook for myself..i have been craving for 떡볶이 ever since i came from korea. Oooohh n im eyeing this pot i saw at Sol Mart that is ever so prominent in korean dramas. Eh it plays an pivotal role k. Lol. The main characters depend on it whenever they cook ramen! xDD

Heh n i told my mum if i can get a job i will treat her to eat korean food at the restaurant there..my 갈비~

Ahhh i finished my 5gb quick download in a day! *faints*

Well i think i covered most of my dbsk vids but my ss501 n suju...

*fainted*

On a sidenote, i dreamt of the 5 bois yesterday! Hee. But instead of speaking to jaejoong i think i spoke to yunho the most. I dreamt i was testing the bois' english so they had to prepare a speech or something den yunho went to memorise it (nb: given his 好胜 character =p) while the rest just read off their notes. But in the end he couldnt really remember so i had to prompt him.

Ehhh cant really recall what happened after that..

But heh at least its a 동방 dream!

또 울어버렸다.. @ 8:41 PM

Just another day
Listening to: THSK [Lovin' You]
Thinking of: Jack Sparrow

Finally went to catch Pirates of the Carribean: At World's End with huiye yesterday. Actually i wanted to watch the show in the first place cos of Chow Yun Fatt cos i just thought it was kinda amusing to see him say 'welcome to singapore'. Lol. But yeah in the end, it was jack sparrow who kept me captivated. ^^

Heh another exception to my Favourites list. xD

I seriously think the whole trilogy would have been a flop if not for Johnny Depp.

Cant say his eyeliner din help cos i do have a soft spot for guys with eyeliner.

Ok let me correct that slightly.

A soft spot only for guys who look GREAT in eyeliner.

For Those who look disgusting in eyeliner, pls kindly stay out of my vision. Thankew!!

But nah, it was more of his wit that made Sparrow charming. The eyeliner was just a bonus. Ha.

I realise smart guys n i dun mean those that score perfect As in their papers, can be really charming. Take L from Death Note for instance. Or even Steven Ma's role in Safe Guards. N of cos Sparrow. Its like i will always be waiting in anticipation for their next move and it kinda intrigues me the way they come up with the perfect solution. How on Earth do their minds work?

Hmmm..

Absolutely charming.

*grins*

Lol i cant think of another word besides charming.

So if u dun look as gorgeous as kim jaejoong or sing half as well as an chil hyun, pls be as smart as jack sparrow to attract my attention. xDDD

Ohh n yes i cant stand the ger in Safe Guards too. -____-

Give me charmaine anyday with steven.

Sian!!!!!

Me and angie are equally sian.

Dun feel like working. But what can one do without $?

NOTHING.

N i know my spending limits.

Or rather, the lack of spending limits.

I think i would need a rather substantial paycheck to feed my dbsk addiction.

>.<

Kim jaejoong..u are burning such a big hole in my pocket i feel like i could strangle u sometimes.

But of cos, the 'sometimes' is usually offset by the ulper numerous times i would give anything to see u..

I am still craving for my rice cakes!!

Argh~

I swear i will fly to korea once every year when i start working.

Especially on the 26th of january...

또 울어버렸다.. @ 8:43 PM

A new Resolution
Listening to: Fly to the Sky [All Night Long]











또 울어버렸다.. @ 3:50 PM

유천아~
















또 울어버렸다.. @ 6:41 PM

Craving for korean food
Thinking of : 갈비,김밥,라면,미역국 n of cos my 떡볶이!!
Listening to: My bro grumbling in the backgrd about skipping his french class

I miss korean food terribly..keep thinking of my 떡볶이. Aish.

Where can i find nice 떡볶이 and kimbap to eat?

Heh nat when u are there, pls send me some by mail. Lol.

Just finished this novel by Amanda Quick. Hmm not a bad read..combines both romance n crime suspense in just the manner that i like. But of cos Nora Roberts can do a better job. Heh any other authors to recommend me, anyone? ^^

Cham i think my finances are running dangerously low again. Pple..do not ask me out if possible. xDD Ok fine just kidding. I mean as in i dun think i will be able to afford good food for some time ba. Though it suddenly dawned on me how cheap the food is in singapore foodcourts as compared to in korea. =p

But singapore is so so boring!!

Huiye's angmo penpal is going over to korea to teach eng in aug. So good. I also want~

Hmm actually there were alot of interesting stuff that me n angel encountered in seoul but i abit lazy to write. Lol. Nvm wait til i get the pics from angel ba.

Ohh i so wanna change my blogskin but..!! yeah i shall not bother to write why. Been occupied playing X-men on PS2 with my bro these few days ever since he started his hols. (he's a pri sch teacher).

I need more time~

Tic toc tic toc..

또 울어버렸다.. @ 2:00 PM

A lone Piscean in this world
11.03.1984
꿈을 잃은 아이
Frigging irrational
Works solely on emotion
Nonchalent about reality
Advocate of Atheism
Not a people's person,
but an animals' person
Only belief - 대한민국

내 싸이월드



Jay Park. 박재범.
멀리 가지마 다시 와라.
우리 옆에서.
제발.
그 날까지 기다릴께.



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